i've also gone back to two a days. i quit for a while, when i was riding my bike so much, but now i ride my bike to work, ride home then immediately go for a three mile run. i've become so accustomed to being active. so much so that i went on a date tonight. i rode my bike to Target with the most beautiful sky i've seen in a long time, walked around Target for an hour, got my chocolate, wine and pumpkin scented Fabreze, and rode home. it was the happiest i've been in a long time.
i like this sabbatical idea. i love being single. i love playing the guitar, drinking wine and eating chocolate while watching Sex and the City on DVD, watching Simpsons commentary while eating my small dinner, working out, being myself. it's wonderful not thinking about guys. worrying about them. wondering what they are thinking of me. if i never get married, i would be so happy. i love being on my own. i love being alone. i actually hope i never am in a couple. i never want to be so compromising again. i never want to lose myself in someone else.
in other news, i wrote the president of UT, dean of communications, and director of CCS about the shitty "work" the CCS does. they don't help people find jobs, and they are disrespectful. my email made my mom proud. she said it was perfect. it was. it came out of passion. as a result, i got a long email back from the director of the CCS. we are having a meeting soon.
i also emailed my cousin who is going through a crappy crappy breakup, and she said she was happy to receive it. i hope i see her at Thanksgiving.
this has been a week of proud moments and passions. i've never been tested so thoroughly than this past week. i've brought myself to the level of free work for experience, having to say no to someone you whole and pure heartedly love, pushing people to do their job, and realizing that life really does never look like you thought it would.
the fall is coming. and i have never been more excited. i've never been more ready to accept my life.
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