my God, can it go any faster? Oh. My. God. I don't think I can last here!

i just had dinner with my co-workers from stizzle-bizzle since we won our door decorating contest, and i had a great time!  it was fun to talk and drink beer and eat pizza.  it also helped that i made them all laugh a lot.  like, a la-tte.  a-yuck a-yuck!

there are a few brief announcements:

•   i will be entering myself in the Austin Marathon on 2.15.09.  i've been wanting to do a marathon for a long time now, and after being approached by one of my best/good friends Jesi, we will be running in it.  it's good incentive to run more and be pushed into something even better for me.  i was planning out my running schedule today at work, and jezie-chrizie, it's tough.  before i know it, i'll be running 20 miles in one day.  on thanksgiving alone i'm running 9 miles.  ugh.  the farthest i've gone is 10 miles, and i hope i can do this.  i mean, i guess if i'm already on the trail i can't go back.  i've also been looking up diet plans, and though it's not much different than what i eat, i'll just have to eat more frequently when i get higher in miles.  it's my typical high fiber, high grains, many raw fruits and veggies stuff, so no big whoop.  mary asked me where i kept my pizza pan when she came over once, and i said i didn't have one:  i almost always eat my food raw.  pizza is almost never on the menu.

•   i've found myself in a situation that is more difficult than i once thought.  my head is constantly running, and my heart is both excited and lethargic.  it's like an ill-timed fantasy, and i have to refuse.  i'm in a personal building time, and i can't let this interfere.  it's flattering and heartbreaking.  but i guess that is life.  i pray for karma in the sense that i'll be paid back in the end.  you owe me, God.  sometimes saying no to a date can be the hardest yet most beneficial thing.

• it's not official, but i'm planning a trip to ireland.  in december.  i have to go.  i've been wanting to visit ireland for what seems like forever, and now i want to go while i have hotel discounts, no relationship, enough money, and enough moxy.  i will be going alone, which is how i prefer it.  i have it planned out, and i hope to be booking the flight and hotels within the week.  oh man, i hope it works out!

• trent reznor is still hot.  i'd still marry the ex-junkie, atheist, angry, artistic, brilliant, angst-riddled, surprisingly funny sex machine.  yep.  i would.